hey.. i feel like i have so much to tell you. but none of it really matters. how was your day? … good, good. yeah, I’m up at 12:45 a.m. worrying about tomorrow’s math quiz. I’m not ready for it.

That’s all. I just wanted to tell you that. you know. sometimes it’s nice to know that someone else knows. if that makes sense.

Oh, and my little crush… I don’t think I should like him anymore. I don’t think he’s good for me.

Just so you know.

Oh yeah, and, I dropped someone’s debit card in their soup at work.

And today a woman yelled at me. Three times.

Just so you know.

Oh and… and… and… sorry, I can’t think… But I’m sure there’s more to tell you…

um um um.. um umm…. Lemme think lemme think. Sorry, are you going somewhere? Do you have other plans? um um what else..

I wish right now that I didn’t distance myself from everybody. Cause right now I would really love a long hug.

just so you know.

when I said good things are happening, they are. I can feel it. everything is right.
but it still doesn’t mean that I don’t feel alone and scared sometimes. does that make sense? i mean… nevermind. no, nevermind, it doesn’t really matter. i’m all over the place. i don’t know what i’m talking about.

I feel kind of scared and alone right now.

just so you know.

Don’t leave. Keep listening. I’m sure there’s more. Please, just keep listening. Just sit here for a minute.

The relief society came over while I was at work and gave me cookies. I don’t know why they gave me cookies. I bore my testimony at church on Sunday. I wonder if it had to do with that.

just so you know.

after the woman yelled at me at work, another woman who was watching gave me a dollar. She looked at me with a smile and sad eyes. She felt sorry that the woman yelled at me.

Just so you know.

Michael, my friend from school, is going back to Wisconsin next semester. I don’t want him to leave. He is my only real friend at school.

Just so you know.

I had a beautiful day yesterday. And this morning. I had so much to tell you. So many things going on in my brain. So many good things. Isn’t it sad how fast an incident can change your mood? does that make sense? maybe not. sorry. nevermind.

I wish my best friends were in the city with me.

Just so you know.

I’m sorry, I don’t want to bother you. Oh my gosh, I’ve talked too much, I’m so sorry! I’m wasting your time.

Okay, okay, I’ll let you go. Have fun with your friends. I’ll talk to you when I talk to you. Yeah, whenever you want to talk, that is. Tomorrow? Are you sure? Okay, okay. Sorry again, for talking so much… Good night.

3 Comments


  1. I’m not sure who the implied reader is for this post, but I personally plan to hug you more.


  2. Thank you. 🙂 And there wasn’t really any implied reader. Just a conversation I tend to have a lot.


  3. I know where you can get some great hugs. And this is a great interior monologue. Is that what it is? Yeah, I think so.

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