The reason I haven’t posted my New Years Resolutions is because I’ve been overwhelmed by how much I’d like to change about my life. The question is, where do I start?

Since the end of 2011, I’ve thought about the million goals I’d like to accomplish this year. Really, it comes down to becoming the ideal me.

Now let me tell you who the ideal me is. And how about we call the ideal me Vivian (ha!). Anyone named Vivian is more likely to go out and do things, like dye their hair purple or something. Not that I want to dye my hair. The name Vivian simply has more courage and motivation to it than the simple and “cute” name of Anne. So here it goes:

Vivian, the ideal me.

Vivian wakes up at seven every morning to work out, eat a big breakfast, drink lots of water, and be out of the house by 8:30. Vivian has a flat tummy and toned arms. Vivian can also walk without her knees giving out.

Vivian takes her iPod to school and listens to NPR podcasts as she rides the bus. She knows what is going on in the world and is able to summarize a news story in case you asked.

Vivian also takes thirty minutes out of her day to learn Spanish, and another thirty to read German literature.

Vivian goes to a social worker to find new tools about how to deal with anxiety and, by the end of the year, is not stressed about money, feels that she has enough time to do everything she wants in life, and has future plans for traveling.

Vivian travels and writes and takes pictures and gets published.

Vivian doesn’t have backne.

Vivian learns to play the guitar, knit, and takes a drawing class.

For this semester, Vivian has all of her weekend homework done by Thursday at 6pm, so that she can hang out with Spencer Thursday night, work without stress on Friday night, see family/friends/Spencer on Saturday, and have “Vivian-time” on Sundays.

Vivian reads and reads and reads and reads.

Vivian has no desire to waste time on the computer.

Vivian is motivated to study.

Vivian gets at least eight hours of sleep.

Vivian reads the whole Book of Mormon and decides for herself what is true.

Vivian goes to the temple once a month.

Vivian is confident in what she says.

Vivian has a good group of friends.

Vivian doesn’t put up with “eh” friends.

Vivian is always friendly, but can be very blunt.

I’m tired. It’s 12:30 a.m. and Vivian is already asleep.
Anywho. This is the ideal me! Although it may be too stressful to get all of this done in a year, this is what I strive to do with my life.

At least for now.

Gute Nacht.


  1. Dear Vivian,

    I like you, but not as much as I like Anne.

    So there.

  2. Hmmmmm….. This sounds just like…. ME! HAHAHA! Who I am Kidding!?!?! In my dreams!
    I think I like Anne better too! Vivian sounds like a, well I won’t say it!

  3. Anonymous

    You are such a brilliant writer anne/ aka Viv. I wonder who my alter ego is? I want to be Anne, certainly not Erica, as she thinks I weigh 300! Love love love you!
    PS I’m going anonymous so no one will expect the lard butt.

  4. You are such a brilliant writer anne/ aka Viv

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