Harrison and me, yo.


I love my brother Harrison. I think about him all of the time. It’s easier to talk about baby siblings, Max and Mira, but it’s like you forget to talk about the person you grew up with your whole life, you just kind of think of them all the time. Y’know?

When I walk, I count from 10 to 1 on my toes. I start with my left pinky toe, to my right pinky toe, then to my left fourth toe, and so on. step 10, step 9, step 8, 7, 6, 5, 4, 3, 2, 1. Sometimes I sing a song and count the beats by pressing harder on my toe.

When Mom and Dad told me about the Plan of Salvation, my first concern was, What if Julie Andrews doesn’t make it to the Celestial Kingdom? I used to have dreams of flying in the sky and meeting up with Julie Andrews. Yes, I was a huge Sound of Music and Mary Poppins fan.

I am a big fat Momma’s girl and big fat Daddy’s girl. This doesn’t mean I’m attached to their side or dependent on them, but boy do I love calling up my mommy.

When I lived in Sugarhouse I watched the Secret Garden. I cried at the end. I cried during the subtitles. I cried when I ejected the VCR and put it back in its case. I cried until I fell asleep. It was a painful cry. It was a cry of fear and loss. I don’t remember what happens at the end of Secret Garden, but I haven’t wanted to watch it since then.

When I came home one night to the yellow house, Mira was bawling on my mom’s lap. She just finished watching E.T. and she didn’t want E.T. to go home. I laughed at her.